So what causes me to use these quotes?
Well, where to start....
First off, hubby has bipolar disorder, type II. He is usually well controlled but as he has gotten older, he has had more issues with agoraphobia. Because of this, he lost his job last year. He spiraled into a depression and became suicidal. As a result, I had to hospitalize him recently and that is when I found out he had been abusing alcohol and drugs. He is now 4 weeks into recovery and 4 weeks sober (and he is home, but attending an intensive outpatient hospitalization program that focuses on recovery). This has been really rough but we are both coming to terms with it. I'm in therapy for myself to learn how to create and stick to healthy boundaries and we attend a family session at his program on Saturdays.
I've also been dealing with some health issues. I mentioned before that I had fibromyalgia. Fibromyalgia is an evil disease, but I am fighting that b*tch with all I have. I recently got put on gabapentin (brand name: Neurontin) to help. Gabapentin and pregabalin were originally approved to treat certain types of epilepsy and nerve pain. Both drugs work by limiting the release of pain-communicating chemicals by nerve cells in the brain and spinal cord. Fibromyalgia is now considered a disorder of the central nervous system and it can be rough. The gabapentin is really helping, though. I also managed to come down with West Nile Fever, the not so serious cousin of West Nile Virus. It basically means that I had 2 weeks of the worst flu I've ever had without the congestion/respiratory issues. And the fever that I ran from that caused me to get dehydrated and I managed to get a bi-lateral kidney infection. I'm on the mend right now, though I tire very easily, but I'm hopeful.
As for the cycling and what not, well, the actual trying is on hold. I am still using my herbs to regulate my cycle (so far it is working....I'm down to a 32 day cycle with regular ovulation every month) but we discussed waiting to really try until hubby has been sober for 1 year....so 48 more weeks.
I've also decided to do the 3 Day Walk for the Cure in Seattle next September. I am going to be walking with one of my best friends and I will be doing it in memory of my mom (who died from metastasized breast cancer) and in honor of the Figueroa women (my dad's side, where breast cancer runs in the family). I am also doing it to prove to myself that I can, to prove that though I may have fibromyalgia, it doesn't have me, and to do something extraordinary.
Im so sorry to hear about everything your going through. You and your dh are in my prayers. I just want to add, that I really admire you after reading this post. Your one heck of a woman. A very strong woman indeed. I have a friend that struggles through fibromyalgia. I think what you are doing is awesome, and I believe it will truely help you to rise to be an overcomer =)
ReplyDeleteYou have been through a lot and are very strong to have done it all. I like your quote from Mary Tyler Moore.
ReplyDeleteOn another note, you mentioned you were using herbs to regulate your cycle. Do you mind telling me what you are using? I've been on Metformin for almost a year and was regular for about 6 months, but now my cycle is all over the place. I guess my body isn't responding as we'll to the Met since I've been on it this long. Just curious as to what else I might be able to try. Thanks!
Jessica,
ReplyDeleteI will post another post with what I am taking. :)
Big hugs to you. I had fibromyalgia secondary to Lyme disease and do not wish that pain upon anyone. Would also love to hear what herbs you are taking to regulate your cycle (I have looong ones). I tried Vitex with no success. Moving on to Clomid now to try to shorten them.
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