Silent Blogger

When starting this blog with a few friends, I had initially intended to be an informer of PCOS and infertility but didn't know when I would be doing fertility treatments myself. DH and I had decided we would wait til Aug 2012 and go from there on what we wanted to do. Either wait 2 more years until nursing school was over or just steam ahead.

Sometimes other people's decisions affect our own.

As we all know, Mother's Day was last weekend (sorry for the reminder!). Saturday evening the night before, I FINALLY heard back from the nursing school I applied to. I was rejected for the Fall 2012 semester start. Just what I wanted to hear on that weekend, as though it wasn't bad enough.

I didn't know how to react to that. I had expected it, deep down, but still hopeful. Kinda like how I feel whenever I do fertility treatments. Didn't expect it to work but hoped it would.

DH reassured me that everything was ok and this and that. They next morning he picked his words carefully and explained that he viewed it as a sign. Postponing school with no choice, his mom moving out (which isn't happening now...), and summer coming so his second job wouldn't be as stressful was like the pieces coming together. We need to focus on building our family.

So, Monday morning I called my previous OB doctor that also does minor infertility treatments and set an appointment. I expected the standard 2-3 month wait like the first time I went. Imagine my surprise when they said I could be in on THURSDAY!

The days passed and I got giddy and nervous and finally I was at her office.

She is a nice doctor. The only way I can describe her is that she is very professional and sometimes that makes me feel awkward because she doesn't tend to small talk or converse unless promoted, especially if she is entering notes on the laptop (they have a computer file system there). Me, being the socially awkward person in an awkward 1-on-1 situation provided plenty of small talk hoping to make both of us relax and she talked a little more... Anywho...

We discussed my options and she agreed that we would start clomid 50 mg once this cycle of BC was done. Luckily I had decided to start taking it back in January so that ended up cutting off three months of wait time. She also sent a prescription for metformin since it tends to help the clomid out.

I'm excited. AF should start in a week and we will go from there.

How do I feel about all this? Excited. BUT I don't think it will work. I'm hopeful that it will but don't  think it is probable. I guess I'd rather expect the worse so the letdown isn't as hard. We shall see :)

OH! And my insurance doesn't cover ANY infertility, not even clomid so the breakdown:
CVS Pharmacy
Clomid $19.09 for 5 pills (50 mg each) which breaks down to $3.818 per pill
Metformin $1.30 for 1 month (covered by insurance)

Last time we went through this (Spring 2009) Clomid was $18 a pill and generic was $1.80 (Walmart). We decided to just go ahead and splurge on brand name this time :)

Mrs Red's quest with crappy doctors... And a few good ones

I finally went to a doctor after trying for 6 months, given my history they did an ultrasound to confirm pcos and then gave me 3 rounds of clomid, then said "ur too fat, lose weight and come back" that pissed me off so I switched doctors. Now first lemme explain their way of administering clomid... They gave me provera to start the cycle, metformin for the pcos, said call on day 1 to schedule a 21 day progeaterone check, take clomid on days 5-10 and then have "relations" on days 9-16, also said to do a home ovulation kit, which btw are impossible to tell when u have a surge... Then I would go in on day 21 to get blood drawn and sometime about a week later they would call and say "nope u didn't ovulate, wait a week for your period to start and then take provera if it doesn't and call again when your period starts, oan btw, increase your dose" I would ask if I needed to go in to see the doctor and they we're always like no no just follow the instructions. I insisted on leaving a message for the doctor because metformin made me incredibly sick to my stomach, I constantly had the runs (tmi I know) and would throw up, so he said try next month without it. This went on for 2 more cycles and then he gave up.

The next doctor was a dufus and I knew more than him. When I say Dufus, the guy didn't know when the 21 day check was supposed to be done and then he never put my labs in until I was there to get my blood drawn even tho I called... So after 2 rounds of clomid with him I switched doctors again.

The next doctor I went to I explained my history with the other 2 doctors and first he said he doesn't blame weight for my problems because girls MUCH bigger than me have babies all the time (thank you) but he said that since we already did a few rounds of clomid without success that he has seen where a 10% drop in weight sometimes will help people ovulate. So he put me on phentermine for 3 months. I had been trying weight watchers and that plateaued at 15lbs with exercise! So I tried the drugs, weight came off fast and we tried clomid again. This doctor was a little more diligent but still wasn't as thorough as I read online that doctors should be with clomid. Then after 5 rounds he said I'm done go to an RE...
The one thing he said he would do was my HSG test. Which hurt like hell and I cramped for days but showed my Tubes were open.
We think it was after this test that I got pregnant for the first time end of Sept 2009. :-) I didn't know until I was losing the baby...
So we took some time off for the holidays...
Now this is where I'm kicking myself because 1st of all my insurance had JUST switched over and no longer covered infertility... Great... So I wet to another practice. The reason is because I wanted the ovarian drilling and cyst removal thingy and that doctor said nope there was no way he would do that surgery. So I found one who would. Because my insurance would cover that surgery but nothing else. So I got the surgery in march of 2010. After the surgery we tried to see if we could get pregnant naturally. Didn't happen. So we finally decided to go to a specialist in November.

The RE was the best doctor I've had and I'll go into all the iui's and my surgery in another blog. They are really good people and don't deserve to be in my post on crappy doctors lol. In fact the gyn before them was a good doctor too... Clomid, iui treatments, HSG, miscarriage, 2 surgeries are all posts for another day... :-)