Introducing Jessica!

Hi all! I’m Jessica I live in NE Kansas with my husband of almost 5 years! I'm a farm girl and love to go outside and play with my fur babies!  I am 24 years old, my husband is 25. Daniel was an MP in the Army for 7 years and just recently got out. I went to KU (rock chalk Jayhawk) to be a firefighter! I still volunteer at the local station.  Daniel and I have been TTC since 2009. In 2010 I was diagnosed with PCOS. We have went through several unsuccessful rounds with Clomid with metformin, estrogen and the dreaded trigger shot. I kinda expected to have issues. It took my mom 5 years to have me! Right now I am trying to go the natural route with vitamins. I hope that our long awaited miracle will happen soon! I look forward to getting to know all of you! feel free to ask questions, I'm pretty open!

Awesome People

I have a really negative post that I have been wanting to post for the last couple days and just haven't gotten around to it.

But now I can't do that because I read the most AMAZING thing on Facebook today. Yes, Facebook.

At first I was upset because I saw that another friend and his girlfriend were at the hospital and she was in labor. They have only been together since November. (insert sad face here)

But as I read the comments following the hospital announcement, my friend stated that they weren't his twins, but that she was a surrogate/gestational carrier for another couple!

That has moved me to the point of tears right now.

You don't hear about people doing that much these days, mainly because it is SOO expensive.

I'll write about surrogate/gestational carrier more on another day.

Just dwell on the love and giving of one woman to another couple.

That is purely amazing.

Good night fur baby...

We lost a beloved fur baby today. "P" has been with us since 2004/2005 (when we got him is a little foggy at the moment). Hubby and I were still in the dating phase but my uncle had rescued him from a boxer rescue. His name was Elmo back then. Someone took him to the rescue after he had been hit by a truck. He was badly malnourished. You could see every single bone in his body and he had a bald spot on his hip from where they put a pin to fix his broken leg. He was a sad sight but still a beautiful dog. My uncle didn't want to keep him after a month because Elmo had some behavioral problems. So we asked if we could have him. We did not live together nor married nor engaged. Soooo how did we think we were going to manage this? Like a divorced couple with kids lol. His mom said P could not spend the night and my dad said P could not be there if I wasn't home so I would drop P off on my way to work and pick him up on my way home. That or my hubby wold bring him by later when he would come over to visit me. We did this until my house was built and I moved to it before we got married (I moved alone btw)
P just needed a lot of work and patience and he stopped tearing any papers to little shreds. He was a really good dog and sooooo awesome with kids. It makes me so sad that I didn't have kids of my own to climb all over him.
We were out of town and on the way to the airport when we got the call from my mil and SIL. My mil just had the loss of her mother a few weeks ago and the hurt is still fresh, I felt so bad that she had to be the one to find him. He's been hurting for a little while now so it is better for him I just feel so bad, he was still our fur baby. Both of our fur babies from before we were married are both resting eternally now :-( we are down to little Z (mini schnauzer) and big boy D (out cat, which we may need to rehome... But I can't bring myself to do that now)

Fur babies are sometimes all we get for comfort in our IF journey. They help us pass the time and help to feed our need to fill that baby void. I'm going to miss P but I know he's not hurting no more...

Last Week of Puppies

I just posted my remaining puppies on craigslist. Kinda sad because I REALLY wanted to keep the brown one, but DH said no :/

Hopefully they will find really good homes. If you know anybody in the DFW area that would like one, here are the links:

2 Black Female Labs

Light Brown Female Lab

Fur Babies

As most infertile couples, we have fur babies. Every few years we expand...




6 years ago was a cat, Fajita

Fajita

5 years ago was a black lab, Leo, and a black teacup poodle, Ellie Mae

Leo

3 years ago was another cat, Callie Jo

Callie Jo

2 1/2 years ago was another cat, Cheyenne
1 year ago a female black lab, Piranha

Piranha

We gave Ellie Mae to the DH's uncle because she was hard to handle at times. Callie Jo wouldn't stop peeing on his clothes so we gave her to an adoption shelter. And Cheyenne got out when we were leaving for a weekend out of town and we didn't notice. He is still around although DH doesn't believe me. I see him a lot.

BUT, what has me REALLY excited??? Leo and Piranha had babies of their own! Here are some pictures I took today: