So much going on, sorry for the crazy emotions

So this week has just been totally awful. Last Friday my husband got hit by a drunk driver and totaled my car. Thank God he is okay. The guy turned right into him, caused him to go left of center and hit another car, then he got spun around and landed in a yard less than a foot away from a gas main. I thank God sooo much for looking out for him. Then Sunday morning, I get a text from my stepmom saying my dad was rushed to the hospital and I text her back telling her I'm on my way and then she texted me back saying he didn't make it, medics said cardiac arrest. So now my whole world is upside down. My dad and I were very close and I was not prepared for this. Tuesday I had to pay 300 dollars to get my car out of the impound and then later that night I get a text saying my grandma (my moms mom) is in the hospital, thinking its a blood clot in the lung. I haven't heard anything back about it so I'm hoping no news is good news. I'm just an emotional wreck right now. I lost my mom when I was 15 and my dad now at 23. I wish so bad I could have given my parents grandchildren. Now when I do have kids, they will never know their grandma or grandpa. I'm having a very hard time with my dads death and I just wish this nightmare was over.

So impatient!

Recently dh and I have been talking about when to start fertility treatments again. Due to the fact that we have different insurance and that clomid is the evil drug that flips the crazy Jessica switch, we aren't ready to jump in head first again. We've decided in a year... But now that we've decided to wait a year and see if we can get things to happen naturally, I'm getting impatient. I'm being surrounded with pregnant women, impatient women that are complaining about it taking 4 months and still nothing. I've just ran out of patience. I want this NOW!! Im sure that everyone can relate.

So with my impatience I've been researching things to help things along without flipping the crazy switch!

I've looked at pregnitude- according to their website (http://www.pregnitude.com/content/what-is-pregnitude) is 2 grams of myo-inositol and 200 mg of folic acid that you take twice a day- something that I already do. So for 41.28 a month on amazon I've crossed that out.

Fertile aid - supped up multi vitamin with vitex. I'm already taking a multi vitamin and I'm taking vitex daily At 28.95 a month I've crossed that out.

Several others that I've researched have been crossed for the same reason. I guess I've made my own supplement and I just need to have some more patience and hope things happen soon! I hope things get better when it warms up and I can get outside and work on the fence and flower beds! It'll at least keep me from watching so much tv with all the hpt commercials and pregnant women everywhere!