Mrs Red:
Honesty time! I made the decision to become Christian in February 2002. I spent the first 4ish years of my Christianity trying to find my spiritually through bible study and from church hopping (my first church got real gossipy) then a little before I got married we found a church we both liked and went occasionally. Well we got married and started on our journey.... Im not going to lie, this has been a long and hard 5 years. The first year I was all optimistic and like yeah pray and it will happen right away. Then the first year passed and still no baby. I got depressed and started doubting. Year 2 took a really bad toll on me spiritually. I sought out for a lot of answers. I had started listening to k-love radio and it helped by giving me some encouragement. At the new year we started going to church regularly. We never really had and we weren't talking about it, we were just like let's go to church and the pastor at my church is amazing. He makes you not feel like a piece of crud and explains things simply. He gives you encouragement to get through the week and to reflect on things. I was never raised as "go to church everyday and worship" but this church made me want to go and learn more. I feel I'm more understanding now and that God isn't not answering my prayers, he's simply telling me to wait. I can accept that. This journey has actually renewed my strength and made me appreciate things in my life more. I still wouldn't call myself the best representation of Christianity but I have learned a lot in the last 5 years.
Shannon:
Honestly? I will get a LOT of crap for this. Especially if people I know read this... I was raised catholic (and in the summers went to a baptist church with my dad's side of the family). I've been a very strong believer... until the last year or so. Fertility issues really make you think. And it would drive me nuts that people would tell me to just pray about it. Or the ones that said I couldn't get pregnant because I didn't go to church. Stuff like this makes you think. Taking anatomy classes for school doesn't help either. And KNOWING that a hormone is what is causing all of these problems... I just felt like I had a chemical imbalance, that it is all scientific. I now consider myself Agnostic. Agnosticism is the view that the truth value of certain claims—especially claims about the existence or non-existence of any deity, but also other religious and metaphysical claims—is unknown or unknowable. I don't deny that there is a God. But I can't deny other possibilities of being purely scientific or multiple deities. I did consider Wicca because I liked it in high school when I did it for a short while. But at this point in my life I don't find I have the energy or time to learn a new religion. And I still couldn't get into it 100%. I'm sure many people will not like me because of this admittance, but this is a blog about total honesty and openness to all groups/types of people.
Ashley:
My husband and I were both born and raised Roman Catholic. Religion is important to us, I think me even more so, however I don't necessarily believe in the position the Roman Catholic Church takes on infertility/conceiving. God is a very important structure in my life and I feel if he didn't want us to use conventional methods (IUI, IVF, etc.) then he wouldn't have given mankind the intellectual ability to develop such methods. So it really hasn't affect how we proceed with our treatment journey. I don't feel I have lost faith along the way but may be at short times...but I still always believe even though I may be angry with God or questioning Him. I also feel I have more and more faith as we go because I think that's the only thing I can believe in.
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