A few updates for you:
~Yesterday was Halloween (aw...kids in costumes... TEAR FEST!)
~Halloween its my husband's favorite holiday
~Yesterday was CD38
~Hoping the above connections would be lucky I took a HPT
~HPT = BFN
~Nursing application for Spring 2013? REJECTED (2nd time)
~A friend had her baby today... and she even took plan B!
~My furbaby had nine puppies!!!
My point to all of this??
Each rejection feels like your world is falling apart.
Having kids should be life's one guarantee, if we choose. When you can't succeed at THAT you feel like there is nothing you can succeed at.
Maybe I just need a nap... and a drink.
~Yesterday was Halloween (aw...kids in costumes... TEAR FEST!)
~Halloween its my husband's favorite holiday
~Yesterday was CD38
~Hoping the above connections would be lucky I took a HPT
~HPT = BFN
~Nursing application for Spring 2013? REJECTED (2nd time)
~A friend had her baby today... and she even took plan B!
~My furbaby had nine puppies!!!
My point to all of this??
Each rejection feels like your world is falling apart.
Having kids should be life's one guarantee, if we choose. When you can't succeed at THAT you feel like there is nothing you can succeed at.
Maybe I just need a nap... and a drink.
Yes I agree children should be a guarantee, however some of us have to work much harder and pay a very pretty price to have them. But it is ALL worth it and will make you a much better and more appreciative parent. You definitley won't be the mom complaining and telling people how much she hates her kids. Hang in there girl, God must think you're one tough nut!
ReplyDeleteRejection for ANYTHING is soooooo much worse when you are denied this HUGE thing. Especially when it's something you are working hard for "in place of" a child. Not like anything can take the place but you figure, can't get pregnant right now right now but maybe if I focus all my energy on X I can get/do Y and thennnnn you do all this work and come up short. Maybe there are good valid logical reasons why Y didn't happen but all you see is another thing that isn't going your way. IF sucks and there's nothing fertiles understand about that. If you try to explain your frustration on the loss of yet another thing they act like its no big deal and to suck it up but we see it as another loss in the game of life and feel pretty bad about ourselves. Don't, you know something is in store for you even if you can't see it right now. Keep applying, you'll get in. I know that's just as hard as half the things we hear about IF but I do think its going to happen, both of them. And when they do you will be readier than you imagined.
ReplyDeleteIt really does suck =( But your love for your child will be so great when this actually comes to pass, and you will have an INCREDIBLE story to tell your child/children(could be twins!) how hard you worked to get them here. You will be an amazing mom. Just hold on there! =D Your time will be coming. I know this is so hard, but it will be so worth it in the end =D
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