Some days my body just confuses me. I've been cramping on and off for about 2 weeks, on top of that I've spotted twice this cycle, making me think that af is on the way. But nope, nothing happens. I'm on CD39 and I'm just so frustrated. I took a hpt last Sunday and was just a little hopeful. I snuck into the bathroom and BFN. I try really hard not to let DH know when I'm I'm taking a pregnancy test, he gets so so hopeful and it breaks my heart to tell him it's just another BFN. It's hard enough to admit silently that it's negative. When you have to say it out loud its twice as bad.
I have to remind myself that life isnt all that bad. Our dryer went out Tuesday, it was overheating and starting to melt the plastic covering around the wires. I had no idea how we were going to replace it. DH doesn't start working until next month! Frustrated I turned to Facebook (who doesn't lol). One of my families old friends and neighbors said he had a nice dryer that he would sell us and we could work out payment later! When we went to pick it up it was a whirlpool duet! He also let us have the washer that went with it. You know your an adult when you get excited about a new appliance!
Oh, and we got some pictures taken last weekend. ;) this isn't a posed picture. She was actually taking a picture of my sister and BIL and turned around and snapped this. It's one of my favorites!
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I love the picture! It's so sweet!
ReplyDeleteAnd yes you definitely know you are an adult when new appliances get you excited like Christmas mornig when you were 5 lol! That's awesome you found someone selling right when you need it and is willing to work a payment plan out with you! Laundry mats stink, I had a whole load of clothes stolen when we used one!
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DeleteI know the feeling of hiding in the bathroom and then shoving BFN's into the bottom of the trash can or stashing them in the back of the cabinet until trash day... Feels so.... Downing! Our bodies trick us to think one thing and then it's nothing. There have been times I've prayed for AF to come so that I can go about my life not wondering if maybe, just maybe there was hope because deep down I knew it was nothing. It's so hard to keep hopeful when going through it! There are days where I have all the hope in the world an others where I am so down that nothing can bring me up. IF is a cruel beast I don't wish on anyone!
I know that feeling oh too well. I feel like I should just buy stock in pregnancy tests, and I never let my dh know when I buy them. Our days will come though girl, hang in there! =) Great pic btw, very cute! =D
ReplyDeleteGorgeous photo! I stopped telling DH I was taking pregnancy tests about 2 years ago. If I do mention I was thinking about taking one I always express serious doubt in it being positive and why. Afterwards I might leave it on the counter so he can see it was negative without asking me :/ Things we do to spare feelings!
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