After seeing my home LH tests... I have no hope that I ovulated. Here is the pic from CD9 (last day of clomid) to today:
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| (I was kinda dehydrated for the one that is yellower than the rest) |
Kind of a downer on my day.
And I did this during lunch time so afterward I stopped at BK on the way back... And the lady in the drive-thru was pregnant. Lovely.
Day hasn't gotten much better. I know what the results are going to say.
This is honestly the hardest part of infertility: trying to remain hopeful even though, time and time again, it just doesn't happen. And I don't just have my battle with PCOS, I don't ovulate PERIOD.
On my mind has been this song (below). A friend put it on facebook and I think of husband throughout the song. But there are certain verses and parts of the chorus that make me think of this infertility journey. Enjoy :)
About your last post, if the 50mg doesn't make you ovulate, most likely your doctor will go up on the dose. Don't lose hope!! You could still ovulate this cycle! Cd29 for me!
ReplyDeleteTrying not to but it gets hard. I forgot how extensive the emotional toll can be when doing treatments :/
DeleteClomid doesn't help the emotional part... I know what u mean, but the day you did what works for you, you will be so happy an d forget
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ReplyDeleteYou will forget everything bad yu are going through now, maybe not completely forget but you will definitely appreciate it all the more. I know that's not very comforting right now but will be one day. Just keep looking to "one day" you will get there some way, some how. I know fertile myrtles will never understand or appreciate what we go through to get our miracle but it'll all be worth it that day
Keep your chin up, I know it's SUPER hard, but you will get there! Mrs Red is right, once you are pregnant you will know how much its worth every bit of pain and suffering! We had our first perinatology appointment yesterday and my husband came home from work last night and said, "I have to tell you, thank you so much for not giving up." You will always remember the hardship and for that you will be such a wonderful and appreciative parent - the best kind! I'm rooting for you!
DeleteBTW - A Thousand Years is the song that got me through the last few months of treatment and even the first few months of pregnancy. I still get teared up when I hear it.
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