Sometimes other people's decisions affect our own.
As we all know, Mother's Day was last weekend (sorry for the reminder!). Saturday evening the night before, I FINALLY heard back from the nursing school I applied to. I was rejected for the Fall 2012 semester start. Just what I wanted to hear on that weekend, as though it wasn't bad enough.
I didn't know how to react to that. I had expected it, deep down, but still hopeful. Kinda like how I feel whenever I do fertility treatments. Didn't expect it to work but hoped it would.
DH reassured me that everything was ok and this and that. They next morning he picked his words carefully and explained that he viewed it as a sign. Postponing school with no choice, his mom moving out (which isn't happening now...), and summer coming so his second job wouldn't be as stressful was like the pieces coming together. We need to focus on building our family.
So, Monday morning I called my previous OB doctor that also does minor infertility treatments and set an appointment. I expected the standard 2-3 month wait like the first time I went. Imagine my surprise when they said I could be in on THURSDAY!
The days passed and I got giddy and nervous and finally I was at her office.
She is a nice doctor. The only way I can describe her is that she is very professional and sometimes that makes me feel awkward because she doesn't tend to small talk or converse unless promoted, especially if she is entering notes on the laptop (they have a computer file system there). Me, being the socially awkward person in an awkward 1-on-1 situation provided plenty of small talk hoping to make both of us relax and she talked a little more... Anywho...
We discussed my options and she agreed that we would start clomid 50 mg once this cycle of BC was done. Luckily I had decided to start taking it back in January so that ended up cutting off three months of wait time. She also sent a prescription for metformin since it tends to help the clomid out.
I'm excited. AF should start in a week and we will go from there.
OH! And my insurance doesn't cover ANY infertility, not even clomid so the breakdown:
CVS Pharmacy
Clomid $19.09 for 5 pills (50 mg each) which breaks down to $3.818 per pill
Metformin $1.30 for 1 month (covered by insurance)
Last time we went through this (Spring 2009) Clomid was $18 a pill and generic was $1.80 (Walmart). We decided to just go ahead and splurge on brand name this time :)
Clomid is on the Walmart $7 or $9 prescription list now. Just an FYI. My friend found out purely by accident.
ReplyDeleteGood luck! I hope things go well and you respond to clomid. I did not respond to clomid, clomid/metformin combo, or femara (letrozole)- we spent 10 months on various different dosages and the oral meds did not work at all for me my body just would not respond. I had to move onto injections and injections with IUI did not work for us, but IVF did on the first try - with twins :) It was worth every single penny.
ReplyDeleteI know it's very very very hard and difficult but try to get your mind in a good place and believe the clomid will work. It truly helps your body respond if your in a good mental place. I know its not easy because I've been there and I honestly thought we'd never be pregnant for months before we did IVF. However once we started the IVF screening process the medical staff and other women who went through IVF that I know told me how important it was to have your mind in a good place. It was very difficult for me to do that because for two whole years we didn't have ANY hope, my body won't ovulate but three times in those two years and there was no chance for pregnancy besides those three times -which I didn't get pregnant. So we took a little vacation and I total cleared my head of infertilty and came back refreshed and thinking that IVF had to work.
I'm really hoping clomid works for you and that you will have a growing belly very soon!!! Good luck :)
I am on vacation now trying to clear my head too. I am just on Metformin at the moment, but hoping and believing that is all I am going to need. I don't think I could afford IVF. You can follow my blog at http://faithnpixiedust.blogspot.com
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