Awesome People

I have a really negative post that I have been wanting to post for the last couple days and just haven't gotten around to it.

But now I can't do that because I read the most AMAZING thing on Facebook today. Yes, Facebook.

At first I was upset because I saw that another friend and his girlfriend were at the hospital and she was in labor. They have only been together since November. (insert sad face here)

But as I read the comments following the hospital announcement, my friend stated that they weren't his twins, but that she was a surrogate/gestational carrier for another couple!

That has moved me to the point of tears right now.

You don't hear about people doing that much these days, mainly because it is SOO expensive.

I'll write about surrogate/gestational carrier more on another day.

Just dwell on the love and giving of one woman to another couple.

That is purely amazing.

Whammy After Whammy...

So... Apparently it is that time of year.

I think there is always a certain spot in the year when everyone has found the baby dust in the drinking water but I haven't.

Yesterday my SIL's ex-fiancee announced that him and his wife are expecting a baby... ON OUR ANNIVERSARY. (And keep in mind... yesterday was my BIRTHDAY)

TODAY I find out his baby sister (about 21 y.o) is also pregnant with her boyfriend.

I need to figure out where that magic water is... I may need SOMETHING to get me out of this state of shock!

They Just Wouldn't Stop!!!

Last time I did clomid was spring 2009. I did 50mg and 100mg and then chose to stop because we were moving in with my FML and trying to get a house. Too much stress.

I recently took clomid 100mg and something happened that I can NEVER remember ever happening to me before!
August 3rd, I was in a great mood. Surprisingly because usually the Clomid Witch wants to appear. Husband snapped at something because he was having a bad day, and although he apologized a few times, my morning was ruined.

I got to my first house (I clean houses) and suddenly I couldn't stop crying. I was TRYING to stop because I cry all the time for movies, commercials, etc., but this was for NO REASON. And not just tears trickling down. At one point I was sitting on the edge of the tub just bawling. For no reason. It just wouldn't stop. My mom, who got pregnant with twins on clomid 100mg 16 years ago, told me it was a chemical cleansing and to just let it out.

Needless to say I did and I was SOOO glad the owner wasn't home that day!

What is the craziest thing that fertility meds have done to you??

Infertility is....

Some Good Infertility Quotes

“If a tree falls in the forest, can anyone hear it? If an infertile bangs her head against the wall in a bathroom at a baby shower, can anyone hear her?”

 “Millions of couples suffer from infertility, so why the f$ck is everyone pregnant but me?”

 “Nature has got it all wrong: When you are younger, it should be harder to get pregnant, and as you get older it should be easier. When you are so ready, you can’t do it to save your life. And when you are 21, you are so not ready, but you are ripe as could be. The eggs should become more developed the older you get, not die slowly from the day you’re born. That’s one thing God got wrong.” – Halle Berry

Inspirational book title:  - The Facebook Story: I just deleted all my pregnant friends.

 If curiosity killed the cat, than the infertile can shoot eye pistols at the fertile who conceived on her first attempt.

“You know you are trying to get pregnant when: Someone asks you today’s date and you reply “Day 21.” -Melissa

“You know you have been TTC too long when you open the fridge door and immediately get angry at the eggs in the carton…. or jealous.” -Tiffany

 “QUESTIONER: “Wow, I didn’t know you were married that long. How many kids do you have?” ME: “None. They’re on backorder. I ordered them, like, forever ago. I don’t know, they must be out of stock.” -Rachel



Gotten from :  http://www.999reasonstolaugh.com/

Timing Timing Timing

For the last several months I have been thinking about when we will try again for a baby.

Originally we decided to wait until I started nursing school, based on the hope that it would be the Spring or Fall 2012 semester.

We made that decision a while ago, when I had initially planned on applying in Aug/Sept 2011 for the Spring 2012 start. I ended up not being able to apply because I couldn't take the entry test due to all the dates being full.

In the meantime I took additional classes like medical terminology and a certified nursing assistant course. I just finished the CNA course on March 1st (as valedictorian!) and submitted my nursing application for the Fall 2012 start on February 27th.

I was annoyed at that additional delay. Then I started thinking... Always a bad thing.

Nursing school is 2 years long. I have a feeling, deep in my gut, that if I am accepted for the Fall 2012 start, we actually won't start trying until the 2nd year of school, that way I'm done when we start trying.

I know it's smart, but it tears at my heart. I know we have to see how it goes... but still...

~Shannon

That time of the month... Err... Year? Quarter?

My periods have never been monthly except for the years I was on birth control. never ever have I had a natural monthly cycle. I got close after my drilling surgery, it was every 60 days for 3-4 cycles. But other than that, NOTHING... Until December. I had one Nov 27 and then Dec 25th, it came on its own and close enough to 28 days for me! I was so excited!!! We have been juicing so I figured it was regulating my hormones. So I was hoping maybe I could get pregnant this month?!!!! Well guess who showed up today? Making this cycle 31 days :-( I was so tempted all week to take a hpt in wishful thinking... I'm glad I was too scared too because I woulda just shelled up... But aunt flo is just as bad as a bfn to me... At least it's month 2 of monthly... Novembers cycle was started with depo provera and then we have been juicing raw organic fruits and veggies ever since, except the beginning of this cycle because we took a week break which I think is what threw the days off. I am really hoping this is the month, next cycle should start around the 18th, my bday.... So a bfp would be the best bday present ever... EVER


-Mrs Red

Need a Cry Day?

Do you ever feel the need to just sit for a while and cry? Sometimes I do it without realizing it.
I will sit down on the computer and just wander to YouTube... next thing I know I'm watching fertility videos. All sorts of them... Help videos, success videos, songs, everything.
End up balling my eyes out for an hour. It helps. :o)
My FAVORITE song is this one: Kellie Coffey: I would die for that