FET 2WW

So I got my protocol back for the FET. I took birth control for a month and on cd 21 I started 2 weeks of Lupron injections. Then about a week later went for blood work and a baseline sono. Then started putting on estrogen patches in a very calculated plan. Building up to 4 patches changed out every 72 hrs. Then had my transfer this week where we transferred 2 beautiful blasts. I took the day of the transfer off of work and have been working from home the rest of the week. The hardest part has been that DH has been having to take DD to daycare while he goes to work and I have to wait for him to get out to see her. Luckily we work at the same company with an onsite daycare so I know it's not a long wait for her when he gets out but he works long days. I hate that she's there for that long but I cannot lift her right now and am supposed to be laying down. All day except to pee. I took a Valium before the procedure which was prescribed by the RE and I needed it! Sure did make me a little loopy but it was ok. My transfer was about 45 mins late because my bladder wasn't filling up. After 4 bottles of water we were finally ready. I should have opted for the catheter afterwards because I was FULL! Lol but we made it through. I went home and slept. I've been very bored being at home not interacting with people and hiding this secret that I'm not at work from my parents and Facebook. Lol. My beta day is May 4 which happens to be the day of retrieval 3 years ago which resulted in my DD. I'm hoping that we get lucky again and we have a sticky baby again.

Optimistic 2WW

               Hello everyone. I hope everyone is doing well. It's been a while since I have posted an update, so I thought I would go ahead and do so now. Back in September I believe it was, I did my first month of clomid at 50mg. It was unsuccessful and my cycle day 21 progesterone test only came back a .7. My Dr increased my dosage to 100mg. First month on 100mg, my progesterone was 11.6. The second month it was a 12. Unfortunately, my doctor didn't do a progesterone test this last cycle.

            I am very optimistic about this cycle. Things so far are looking extremely well. My chart looks good (especially if you take out the first dip and rise because I was very sick those days and they effected my temps, fertility friend isn't even taking them into effect). 2 days ago, I experienced what I am pretty sure was implantation bleeding at 6dpo. If not, then I am honestly going to be completely shocked because it seemed very likely to be implantation with the consistency of it, rather than anything else. Some of my tracking apps are giving me a lot of hope because every time I enter any information (CM, some symptoms, temps and more), they always are telling me they could be a sign of confirmation that I may have conceived. So, I am trying very hard not to get my hopes too high for being set up for disappointment, but so far everything seems to be great. Only time will tell, so we will see :) How is everybody else doing right now?

Hopeful 2ww

Well it's fertile Friday, and I'm in the 2ww. Last week I was having o pains on both sides, and everything lined up ;).

Today I had awful cramps in my lower back. It almost took the wind out of me! I'm trying really hard not to get my hopes up. I don't want to deal with being hopeful and another heartache. DH is getting hopeful too. I haven't said anything to him, but the other day he said that he has a big feeling that we were going to have a baby soon. Im hoping that his feeling is right. But what if they aren't? The more hopeful I get, the more symptoms I "find" and interpret as possible pregnancy symptoms. I guess I will have my answer in a week or so. I need to wait it out and relax, stop interpreting every little twinge and a good sign.


Do you let yourself get hopeful in the 2ww or do you try to stay neutral to avoid heartache?

2ww

Mrs Red's update:

Have I ever mentioned I hate waiting.... I'm not a very patient person, I have gotten better because if there's one thing I've had practice with my "fertility", it's patience!
But I still hate waiting! I try to over analyze every little twinge and headache. I want to know already! I want to take a test but what if it's a false positive? What if it's negative and tomorrow they say it is positive? Or what if it's truly negative? I hope all the things I'm feeling are real and not just placebo or side effects from the progesterone in oil...
I really want everything I'm feeling to be real and for the best possible reason ever but I am so afraid it's not. I want to stay positive but 2 weeks is a long time to wait people!!!!
Monday I will go for blood work, pregnancy test, and sono to check my OHSS. I've been feeling worse since Tuesday and it's hard to breathe. Today the hubby said he thinks they might have to drain me because I look really bloated all the way up to my boobs. I'm not sure if I'm offended or not from his observation lol I guess since I'm so uncomfortable and really am bloated I just agree lol. Oh well, let's get through the next few days.

I promised my mom I'd tell her first when the time comes so if it's positive I'll be holding off blogging or texting anyone about it.
I will also hold off blogging or texting if it is negative because I don't know how I'm going to take it. I've semi come to terms with the facts it could be negative but with everything I've been feeling and all the hormone I'm on, I'm pretty sure I'm going to be too sad to want to talk bout it.

Sooooooo, I'm not going to talk about it for a little while :-) quiet time for Mrs Red for a bit